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mitch bought me some irises yesterday... they werent fully opened...

now they are blooming, in a way it makes me hopefull. things will keep going.

in another way though, it's a bit depressing.
they were doomed before they even bloomed. they'll give me pleasure and peace for a few days at most.

I'm worried about my parents.
I'm worried about flying on Thursday evening to go see them.
there are military bases in Charleston area... I know the chances are low,... but what if the unthinkable happens... AGAIN? I dont know what I'd do if I lost them.
think of all the children tonight whose parents never came home for dinner.

I cant watch the tv anymore